it was a tough decision. really. I've been making some researches on various phones since my communicator was making my life a lil miserable after 2 years of usage.

first, i had my eyes on Nokia N81. unfortunately, due to it's late arrival to Ukraine, I decided to get something which is avail here. Still, the option on Nokia ExpressMusic 5610 was a total disappontment. True enough that the camera installed is 3.2megapixel (one of the main criterias i want in a mobile phone) and based on numerous reviews i read and received, 3.2mp is adequate enough on producing a clear image.

Nokia 5610: built-in music player is stunningly fine, camera should be ok too since it's 3.2mp. The thing is, does it have XENON flash? and the answer is, NO. Truth to be told, i've been craving for  a suitable digital camera for myself. Hoped for money to come, i decided to call it off on camera-hunting and i turned to mobile-phone scavenging instead.

it;s worth the effort, though. i asked my friends regarding the best specs in a phone. seriously, it's crazy. i argued and stood on my defences on my option whilst my friends wouldnt stop on contemplating about it.

but they're right, in a way!

Generally, Nokia wont stop releasing new models, period. most of them are sleek-looking and undeniably-bright-colours. In short, Nokia is pretty artistic when it comes to physical features. and it awed me! :P

however, i changed my mind. i made a huge leap this time (and I thank God for evolving my preferences.) and it's Sony Ericsson. I vowed once that I'd be loyal to Nokia and will only get Nokia products. None other than that.

5MP camera with a built-in XENON flash? Who would resist such temptations? I gave up and told Hilmi, "I want this phone." Hilmi was practically shocked with my decision and asked me once again for reassurance. I had no doubts so i told him , "Seriously, i want it." (Big thanx to Hilmi and Faiz for accompanying me to Radio Rinak!! xoxoxo!) Hilmi helped me out with the bargaining and got it for the price of UAH2940. (Before bargain:UAH2950, Memory Stick Micro M2: UAH180) for the price of both stuff, I got it for UAH2940. I know it's ludicrous for a person like me (i'm thrifty yet lavish!) to buy an expansive phone.

I couldnt help it since the features were just bombastically great! Since then, it's been working fine and in love with the camera.

It's too obvious that it doesnt have all that slide-ish and sleek-ish looks but thoroughly, it's more than just a phone. 

The main competitor for this phone is the Nokia N95. And yes, obviously SE K850i would lose without even competing~

However, i was wrong. I read some reviews regarding the phone and most of the reviewers commented that SE K850i is not built to be something like N95. and they even stressed out not to compare too much between the two. if camera wise, that'll be relevant enough since both models have the same megapixel value.

Frankly, yeah. I did feel a slight regret a few days i bought it, but then, come to think optimistically, the phone is unique in it's on way. The auto-rotation, sensor-buttons and sensor-based-JAVA games, i have a feeling Sony Ericsson is evolving little by little. If you dont believe me, visit this! and check the specs avail for the phones produced by NTT DoCoMo.

And so, it is an unregretable choice. So far the pictures I shot turned out to be clear and satisfyingly flawless. well, you cant expect it to be something like  a DSLR, can you?

Sound works fine and different equalizer settings can be chosen (Normal,Bass,Mega Bass, Voice, Treble Boost). Video mode can be set up either for Video Messaging or Normal recording. 2 Java Games were installed and one of them (Marble Madness 3D) can be played via sensor (in which users may manouver the phone to control the Marble instead of using the keypad).

Just like any other CyberShots, this phone has all the necessities. well, not everything but it's fine for a phone to have such presets.

Size

• 102 x 48 x 17 mm
• 4.0 x 1.9 x 0.7 inches

Available colours

• Luminous Green

          Velvet Blue

Performance

a lot of things have been going through my mind lately and i simply classify it as my biggest nuisance..ever! i just simply hate this kinda things revolving inside my head coz it's tiring.

anyways, i felt relatively okay after i spilled out to my mates. (thanx for being understanding, guys!)

so, here's the deal. i've been messaging with this one dude who's currently quite far away from where i am now. at first, i thought he's the kinda guy who would stand out differently from the other guys i know. unfortunately, he doesnt in any ways. i got so disappointed the whole day until today, in which later, i made a statement : MOST GUYS ARE SIMPLY THREATENED WITH GIRLS/WOMEN WHO ARE FAR BETTER THAN THEM!.

alright, so it sounds like it doesnt have to anything with the mentioned dude but the reality is, IT IS.

finding a replacement after a one-year break up is so not easy for me. believe me, it took me ages to erase those mushy2 stuff and fantasies i've built up with my previous exes. (damn, i am miserable!)

and so, i thought maybe i should go get a guy myself.

truth to be told, i dont do all this flirting stuff. that is so not me. seriously.

if i ever have a tiny crush on this specific guy i like, i wont show. i'd just see him from far. coz i dont like expressing these kinda stuff, anyway.

back to the basics, so, most guys that i've dated seem to have this interest on getting NICE-DOORMAT girls! I just cant comprehend this fact until i saw it with my two short-sighted eyes!

they just love treating all thise sweet-talking, mengade2 girls and have them as their girlfriends. and from that point on, i went , "HEY, WHAT'S WRONG WITH BEING ROUGH AND INDEPENDENT??"

i dont know. they seem to fall for this kinda girls easily.

alright, so generally, i do look rough coz i am a little boyish but not 24/7. i dont do all those punches and knuckle-shoving-to-people's-face that sorta stuff. what i understand about myself is, it's reflex. and the way i talk, i dont think i have that hoarse voice like guys have. so, it makes me a normal girl but slightly clumsy and fidgety yet tough.

i got disappointed all the way shortly after that and declared myself as an ANDARTU within 6 years time. TT_TT

i freaked out coz i thought the author of WHY MEN LOVE BITCHES? lied almost every single word she typed!

but when i came back to my senses, i realized, everything she said inside the book is absolutely true. if the guy i'm on now seemed to have compalins of me not treating him well (as though i'm his wife or something!) such as, not cook for him daily meals, iron his clothes, do his laundry, cry in his arms and all that shit, HE IS SO NOT THE ONE! it's true. if he keeps on comparing me with the other girls, which means, he's threatened with the girl who is superiorly higher than him!!!

i am not a feminist and i do need a lifetime partner. it's just that some guys are being so selfish and self-centered when it comes to this stuff. (okay, so maybe not all guys are the same!!)

okay. i might sound a little desperate but it;s the truth. i've been trying to blurt it out for some time already but i just couldnt find the proper words to express it verbally.

not until 30minutes ago, i asked for my friends opinion on this matter and what they told me was extremely helpful!

"if the guy wants that typa girl, complains a lot and with the intention to change who you are, HE'S NOT THE ONE FOR YOU. if you think there's no one for you out there, trust me, you will find the one who is so in love with who you are and will try to adapt with it no matter what happens. not vice-versa."

"which means the guy feels threatened! you dont have to be someone else just to get a guy. that is so not a profesional way. what i know is, you should just be yourself. if he;s not comfortable with it, tell him to go away and get an another girl then."

and for sure, i dont not want you readers to classify my friends as bad influences but whatever they just uttered to me is 100% rational.

as for the guy which i so-called trying to get on with, he's too much of a sweet talker and i can see he's evaluating his options.

alright. i remember what one of my friends told me about this, "Just simply start off as friends. dont make all those nasty conclusions and stuff in your head."

and one thing when you're in this kinda shit, think and act like a man would do! (so inspired with Private Practice's quotations!!)

+delete all those unnecessary messages which you still keep inside your inbox. any normal guy would never keep such thing when they're broken-hearted.

and i'm holding to this prespective since then. it felt good actually. i dont even think about it later. so, this is how it feels to be a guy! hahah!

but to me, starting off a relationship with friendship feels so awkward! it's like i have this something set inside my head that we are going to be love partners. i dont want such intentions to actually happen at the same time when i'm making friends with people. that's why i dont favour arranged dates or match-making. and i'd look 100x miserable than before!!!!

when actually, i'm desperate for the right guy to actually accept me wholly!! maybe there's a few guys who accepted me full-heartedly but i declined coz they didn't meet up with my criteria. :P hey, i do have the rights to be picky, right? and it;s not wrong to be one coz it's a matter of life and death. i wanna make babies, you know. ^_-

alright. enough blabs for the nite. think i wanna rest my eyes for a bit and doze off to dream land!

summer had ended like ages ago but i could still feel the heat..up until today.
and yes, i miss home so much.

anyways, i did mention about my summer aims in..erm..let's see..5 entries before this entry? screw it. i dont even get it why my CNS is acting awkwardly these past few days.

so, here i am today, updating. i dont really have that much of idea to submit, so i expect today's entry would be as blunt as always. :P

back to the summer aims.

here are the listings that i aimed for the summer.

• MARA Loan [X]
  Approved, signed and still waiting. That's what I hate the most about Malaysian financial procedures. So uneffective and unorganized. Okay. Maybe it's their right to delay the transaction but come to think of it, do they really understand the true meaning of agreement? I dont mind if the MARA themselves negotiate with the campus admin. If this matter persist, I have no idea what's gonna happen to me next. Expelled? *Shikes*
  
• Pack spices and condiments [X]
  for this one, i had to squeeze into the crowd of Malaysians at Tesco Shah Alam. God, why did I ever choose Public Holiday for grocery shopping?? Well, thankfully everything was still in stock and i eventually got most of the stuff i wanted to bring back to Ukraine. anyhow, the worst part was when the customs here in Ukraine almost confiscated the RM160 stuff that i packed inside my luggage!! Ridiculous, really. My sister, who is apparently in Moscow right now mentioned to me that the Russian customs didnt confiscate anything. This is so unfair! Just because the freaky Ukrainians want to be apart of the EU doesnt mean they have to go absurdly strict!
  
• Creative Zen Vision : M [X]
  This would be my absolute bliss of the summer! My Mama gave it to me as a gift since she promised to get me one! (Thank you so much, Mama!) I've been eyeing this storage-based mp3 player for almost a year and i cant believe i'm owning one! Relatively, i had a few options opened during the summer break, either to pick this or a new music-edition mobile phone (NOKIA of course!). and tell you what, i couldnt care less! The Zen really blew me off when i first surveyed it via Yahoo! Tech. I had a few argument with my mates regarding the CONS of this innocuous-yet-reliable device. Some say it's horrible coz it's too plastic and bulky. Plus, i had a friend telling me that the player looks so intriguing due to its vibrant shell colour. Unfortunately, later after that, this particular person started scrutinizing it for being too bulky and bla bla bla(ii understand the envy, dear. your's is plain black!!!) OKay. so much of a POI change. I dont  really care what others would say about it but so far, the Zen never fail to make my day. The reason why they're scrutinizing so much is because their Nano's are damn lame!! Truth to be told people. I even tested the iPod Nano in my palms few days back. Size wise, love the slimness of the body. Navigation aspects :null! It's a little awkward having my thumb going around in circles with the one-touch-navigation pad(Click wheel). and it's not exactly a one-touch acsess button. Creative is so much interactive! You can even change you background picture and themes! and it has a built-in radio. I dont know, to me, this little devil works fine ever since i bought it except that it hangs a lot due to overloading files in it. Well, at least i dont have to reformat it all the time! plus, they also have this firmware update for the player.
  
  
  
• Notebook [X]
  Yes! I have been contemplating on my NEC notebook for the faulty built-in fan! Well, worth the period. I bought it like 3 or 4 years ago and yeah, it's rational enough to have it crashed once in a notebook lifetime. I waited for about a year or so to replace with a new one but financial frictions really gave my parents a hard time. So this time, I did ask for it from my parents but in the end, i decided to get myself. I borrowed my father's cash for it and later when MARA reimbursed the loan, I'll pay back to Daddy (my father). The  notebook, which happens to be a Dell, i bought it from one of my friends who's doing a part-time job as a notebook dealer. I got it with a pretty much reasonable price. RM3.5k with high performance specs. Once i had the notebook in hand, i went totally perplexed on what to do with it. It's like as though it's your very first notebook. Love the processor (Intel Core 2 Duo)!!! I had never ever experience a double-up speed in my entire life. So, conclusively, THANK YOU, YUSEN for recommending this to me! (actually, i wanted the ATI/NVIDIA as the graphic card but then, it'll be a lot more expensive. ^^;;)
  
  
  
• Digi Camera (Canon PowerShot A560) [  ]
  Well, actually, i went surveying for the camera almost the whole summer. If I pass by any digi camera store, I would never fail to go and inquire for the best subcompacts. The A560 caught my attention. I know its not slim and way high-tech like the other compact cameras avail in stores but, i think the camera will fit in my hands well. I have this termorish shake whenever i held something, so when it comes to taking pictures, i would opt for something which i could hold on too. I dont want to depend too much on the presets inside the camera for instance anti-Shake preset and all. This is my only choice on to brushen up my photography enthusiam. I may not be a profesional photographer but i wanna try taking pictures which could awe people. (btw, thanx to those who have been viewing my pictures at Flickr!)
  I was planning to get it before the departure but then, financial frictions all over again. The subcompact is not that pricey, come to think of it. RM899 i guess. Even A570IS costs RM999. Quite cheap.
  

  

• Trainers!!! [  ]
  I went to Adidas in Bukit Raja and they had this mark-down sale going on. I say a RESPECT M.E turqoise trainers and it costs only RM79!! It was so cheap and i almost bought it. Thankfully i had no cash that day and i all had was my supplement credit card. *sigh* in the end, i get nothing. On buying trainers in Malaysia is not that hard coz they dont have that much of intriguing designs avail. Plus, they're quite pricey to me.
  

  

• Lose weight/maintain current weight [X]
  My weight fluctuated on the first few weeks I arrived. Probably due to some so-called cardio-work out which I did almost everyday(climbing up and down the 2 1/2 storey house). Plus, i had no special appetite for any exquisite cuisine since i put it on hold till the 2nd month of summer break. Later again, i lost weight 1 week before my departure to Simferopol. Too many things ought to be settled and I got freaked out with the circumstance. I just so hate panicking around! But it's good thing when i could actually fit into clothes which previously i couldnt fit in. As the contrary, i feel weak and frail!
  
• Praying attire [  ]
  I didnt get the chance to step on to Jalan Masjid India for new praying attires. I dont know. They do have any other places which sell these but i prefer Jalan Masjid India better. Oh yes. My mother bought this nice praying attire for me from this particular street. No wonder I'm picky! :P
  
• Participate in Canon Teen Expression contest [  ]
  Sad to say, i missed out! I was so ecstatic in joining this contest. Well, i wasnt expecting to reign the first place but i really need people to deliberate my shots. I wanna learn from it. I did come up with a title for the undone-shoot. MY GENERATION. i was digging up for ideas like weeks during summer and as i was listening to YUI's MY GENERATION, it gave me an inspiration to take a picture of us, CSMUers. I was thinking about having my siblings inside it but it felt awkward coz they seemed to be very busy in their own realm. Damn, I hate teenagers these days. So hooked up to their SMSing and yada yada yada world. Alright, no time to contemplate about this coz i used to be a teenager too. :P

so, that was it about the aims. Managed to get some of it done but still, i feel like resuming it. What's your summer aim?

Wednesday September 26, 2007
MYT 7:19:02 PM (THE STAR online)

M'sia rises a rank in Corruption Perception Index

KUALA LUMPUR: Malaysia has risen a rank up on Transparency International's 2007 Corruption Perceptions Index (CPI).

It was ranked 43rd this year but the score of 5.1 was a minimal improvement from the 5.0 that Malaysia recorded last year. 

However, the slight positive change in how people perceived corruption in the country's public sector stopped a five-year downward trend in the rankings, which was 33rd in 2002, 37th in 2003, 39th in 2004, 39th in 2005 and 44th in 2006. 

The annual survey was carried out in 180 countries and is a composite index that draws on 14 expert opinion surveys. It was released Tuesday. 

There were 16 new countries including Afghanistan, Maldives and Somalia. 

The highest Asian country was Singapore which was ranked fourth and is the only non-Western economy to break the Top 10 list, led by Denmark. Somalia and Myanmar shared the last spot. 

Thailand, Vietnam, Philippines, Myanmar and Indonesia scored lower than Malaysia.

Transparency International Malaysia president Tan Sri Dr Ramon Navaratnam hoped that the result would be the turning point in further improving the CPI. 

"There needs to be more effort and greater political will," he said to reporters Wednesday after announcing the results. 

The organisation's founding president Tunku Abdul Aziz Tunku Ibrahim said the results showed that people still perceived Malaysia as being "very corrupt".

"It is very important to have enforcement and honest civil servants. Perception is very real and very important. You cannot just dismiss the results," he said.

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Hah! just what i thought. no matter how much the Government tried, they'll never be off the rank. Seriously, forget about those ANTI-RASUAH and that stuff affrimations. It's not gonna work. I'm not saying just this, but to tell you the truth, i dare say Malaysia's politicians are selfish. (in which most of the corruptions made are among politicians and ehem, authorities.)

and yes, we're as malaysian citizen are sick and tired of this crap.

dont say we didnt try! people have been trying so many options so that the government could actually believe that our effort exists.

but yet, there's still nothing to come.

43 is still a figure and it matters. haih~

anyways, to my fellow readers and bloggers who share the same thoughts, let's wait and see those undone resolutions made by the Government.

anyways, i apologize for the undeniably long cliche on this blog.

semester started 4 weeks ago (and damn! it's already 1 month) and things are pretty much stacked!!

schedules are what they say as CONGESTED. not to forget the admin's office and clinic for med check ups. the lines are always long and the wait is always suffocating.

but, not for me. just for the time being actually. i havent finished anything yet but will make it done soon.

3rd year is so much tiring! i'm telling you, i never thought it would be such torture to my physical and mental abilities. hehe. but really, it is.

alright. so, i will update this blog but it wont be constantly updated. i'll try to find some space for blogging (and i do have something on my mind. a little space wont hurt, ite?).

okay people. ciao!